But when you (in your ego-possession) are confronted with Real God, with the True Guru, you are indifferent! You are already “on top of it”. You have already “got it”. Everything is “all right”—and, because everything is all right, you are not going to lie down at the Guru's Feet, you are not going to bend your neck to God, you are not going to dissolve in the Divine.
The principle of ordinary life is entirely, continually antagonistic to Satsang with Me. You can see it in yourself. How do you live Satsang with Me from hour to hour? You do not. You suffer petty conflicts with one another. You constantly suffer the droning, repetitious cycle of life—and, every now and then, you manage to get a little easy, feel a little good today. "Oh, I went through a little crisis yesterday, and today I feel pretty good."
But that endless cycle of your own moods is not the Condition of Satsang with Me. Satsang with Me requires everything of you. It requires you to absolutely lose face.
You must lose face in relation to the Truth. It is quite a different thing from being caught naked in the subway. You lose face by being absolutely vulnerable to Real God, to the True Guru, to Me—the True Divine Self-Nature of all-and-All. Becoming enthusiastic in My Company is very difficult. Becoming full of love and service, without self‑concern, is immensely difficult in My Company. People do not want to do that, because they interpret Me in human terms. They think of Me as another human individual—and, as soon as that presumption arises in the mind, the conflicts that they ordinarily live with other human individuals tend also to be animated in relationship to Me.
You must observe the strategies that are always arising in you, and observe that they are wedded to the principle of unconsciousness, conflict, dilemma. You must observe that your strategies are always giving rise to dilemma—and, when you see that, you will become truly available to Satsang with Me. Not only will you become available to Satsang with Me, but you will live your entire life based on your relationship to Me. As the usual self-contracted individual, you are always living on the basis of conflict, because you are bound to the principle of unconsciousness. Just so, when you become "Bonded" to Truth Itself, you will live your life as My true devotee. The signs of the devotee will become alive in you, and you will be Happy.
When you become alive with devotion to Me—not external smiling foolishness, but the true devotion that is founded in your heart-response to Me—then your sadhana quickens. Then Satsang with Me, heart-Communion with Me, will become available to you under all conditions, and you will not spend your time constantly going to zero.
Without the devotional "Bond" between Me and My devotee, there is no Satsang with Me. In that case, the Force of Satsang does not move your life, My Divine Siddhi is not available to you.